In the first episode of Artist Diaries, I explore my internal monologue while nearing the completion of an artwork. Each brushstroke embodies self-doubt and excitement, with thoughts about meaning, technique, and expression swirling around. I grapple with hesitation, questioning if the piece resonates or if I've strayed from my vision. This inner dialogue, a mix of criticism and encouragement, highlights the anxieties of perfectionism and the joy of artistic exploration. Ultimately, this introspection shapes my creative journey, reflecting the challenges and triumphs of my artistic identity.